I am beyond honored to be a military wife and so proud of Jeff''s accomplishments in the Air Force; but I forget just how lonely and trying TDYs are until they are present again. Not to mention that the soaring hormones (times four) have my emotions sitting on top of my shoulders just waiting to explode!! I find this TDY more difficult than the previous ones he has been on; not only due to pregnancy but also with all of the time I have to sit and think....and over think!!! Not having a job (other than the job of eating 5000 calories and the baking of four babies) makes it difficult to fill my day and socializing (Internet not included) comes far and few between. I also know that allowing myself to fall into the doldrums is not conducive to the health of myself and more importantly for my four blessings. God brings people in our lives for a reason and timing is all on him. My mother in law called this past weekend and gave me some truly inspirational and comforting words. As much as I think that the time apart from Jeff is torture and of no good, she made the point that moments like this is when God wants us to confide and grow closer to him as he is a jealous God and does not want to compete with even our spouses. How true that is! Although I still hope that time goes by faster than not!!!!
Although I did not get the ultrasound with all of the bells and whistles since the computers were down, I still got an ultrasound (nothing high tech) on the Dr.'s laptop. It never ceases to amaze me at how the babies grow and develop in the span of a couple of weeks. All four had great heartbeats and all four were bee bopping around in their safe haven. A hint of disappointment hit when I was told there would be no fancy ultrasound (I was really hoping to get the chance to see the sexes); but I am still so grateful I get to see the babies at every visit! Today was yet another day of praise, thankfulness, and relief that my bundles are doing so well!
I am still waiting to become "that pregnant lady" who has the blissful pregnancy with no nausea or complications and could be pregnant all of the time...needless to say it has not happened quite yet! The nausea and headaches are still persistent. i saw the endocrinologist this week who opted to wait to do an MRI until after delivery. He could not completely rule out the tumor being the cause of the headaches but said the tumor had not caused any negative effects of hormones so better left alone. The OB was still concerned with the headaches and prescribed a new medication to try and see if it eases both the aches and the nausea (if they still continue he feels a referral to a neurologist is needed). I will depend on prayer! He was impressed with my consistent weight gain despite the nausea; so I was proud my hard eating work paid off! At the next apt. is two weeks he said he will schedule the half day anatomy apt where we will then find out the sex of each as well as their growth progress. For being 12 weeks pregnant, I am rocking a rather large bump! My jaw dropped when the OB said I should expect it to double within the next couple of weeks as the babies start doubling in size!!!! It will no longer be a bump....I will have a MOUND!!!!
Excited, thankful, blessed, overjoyed....they are all great words; but nothing can describe my feelings towards the four growing babies inside! I can sit and dwell on Jeff being away, let the headaches get the best of me, and allow the nausea to knock me down....but I can't. God has given me so much to be thankful for that overrides all of the other ailments. Whether I am "that pregnant lady" or not; I will enjoy every day of it regardless of what comes my way...Alone I could not do it; but with the watchful eye and powerful hand of God, anything can be done!!!